Never Knew...

man i never knew!! girls... even though you graduated high school... always keep in touch with your friends... no matter what.


just in may i lost a old friend of mine... in a car accident. we grew up together since we were in pre- k!! and no matter what... we still remain friends. i left high school to haterzville high... and he asked me to be his prom date... and i turned him down because i was going to my high school prom with my haterzville friends. and after we all graduated.... i lost touch with mostly everyone... even my friend who died in a car accident.


not only that....


today i just found out that i lost another friend of mine... he died last year... overdosed heroin... my friend since jr. high... he was sooo popular with the white girls... and they all hated me because i was the only one he made time to hang out with... me and my best friend...


and right now... i feel so awful because... i didnt have to transfer to haterzville high... i couldve stayed at that school and graduated with the people i grew up with in school!!... and still kept in touch with them all... i had the opportunity to have more time with my friends... and i feel so BAD!! i (not that i want to) never showed up at my friends funeral and pay my respect because i didnt keep touch... and the one i did showed up to was the one that died in a car accident and it was the worst experience that i could go through because our friend was on the stage talking through a microphone and telling EVERYONE how we all grew up together and it took me by suprised because he remembered... and even had the letters that my friend wrote... his diary... his journal... and my name was mentioned in there.. and when i ran back home to my mom... and i cried because not one of his name was mentioned in my book... but the only thing i have of him... are his pictures... and as for the one that died of overdosed... man i just bearly found out...

I sawwy, Steffie....just remember that people move on. And there's nothing you can do about it. You can't blame yourself for moving on and making new friends. That's just the way life goes. I had best friends from Middle School to High School, too...and after we graduated we just went our own seperate ways...and I still talk to them sometimes, but it's not the same anymore. And I can't blame myself for that....it just happens. People grow up and move forward. I don't know what else to tell ya, but I hope you'll feel better soon.

yeah i know... but im saying that i didnt have to leave that high school and just leave all my old friends... and get mixed up with haterzville high... but i decided to leave and explore the world... and hit the reality ugly style... and im also saying that i shouldve kept in touch with all my friends... even though i left that high school... i still shouldve kept in touch... and now that im leaving in january... i told myself that i was gonna keep in touch with all my friends that i have left now... and you JOANNE... dont change!!





some people suck though... like me... i left and i changed a lot.... and people like me are left with little people in life itself!!

i know im butting in... but wheres haterzville?

right outside of dallas

I'm sorry to hear that Stef, I hope things improve. Of course we all want to keep in touch with everyone we were friends with but sometimes it's just not possible. People change, grow apart, move, etc. You miss it but at the same time your life has to change and you meet even more people to share it with.

Aw Steph, I'm so sorry!!! I know it's hard to let people go, I give my respect to your friends that died, i will keep them in my prayer!......~-I will remember all of you guys no matter what!-~.....DONT CHANGE,NEVER LEAVE, IN MY HEART IS WHERE U GUYS WILL ALWAYS BE......


like they say.....tell people you love them b/c you never know what will happen next.



I LOVE U ALL!!!!!

I'm sorry to hear that grl...i know it feels so bad to loose someone u went to sk0o0 with ....i lost many friends...some i went to sk0o0 with and didn't even know it...like drewsbaby said it's hard to let go...but u have to...life isn't always going to bring u good...but sobre todo bad things will happen when u least expect it...i'll keep them in my prayers as well...never know if one day we'll make it home...scary sometimes..

DONT CHANGE?!... MAN I WISH WE ARE ALL THE SAME AS WE WERE WHEN WE WERE LITTLE KIDS... GET MY DRIFT?! BECAUSE WHEN I WAS LITTLE... MAN I HAD FRIENDS LEFT AND RIGHT... MAINLY GUYS BECAUSE I WOULD PLAY FOOTBALL, SOCCER, BASEBALL... MAN I WAS LIKE A TOM-BOY... I DIDNT LIKE GIRLS WHO HAD BARBIES... IF MY MOM BROUGHT ME SOME BARBIES... OR LITTLE CABBAGE PATCH... MAN I WOULD COLOR ON THEM... AND PUT SOMETHING LIKE... LITTLE JERSEY ON THEM...




BUT AS I GOT OLDER... AND LOVED SOCCER MORE THAN ANYTHING... BECAME POPULAR... I JUST GOT STUCK UP... LIKE I DIDNT KNOW ANYONE ANYMORE... AND IT WAS LIKE I WAS SAYING "people like me are left with little people in life itself!!" AND NOW... ITS LIKE IM GOING TO CHANGE. MAKE IT MY NEW YEARS RESOULTION...



AND WHEN I DO MOVE IN JANUARY... AND DONT HEAR FROM YOU GUYS... SHOO ILL REMEMBER YALL.. AND HOPEFULLY KEEP IN TOUCH WITH YOU ALL BECAUSE YOU REALLY NEVER KNOW WHEN ITS YOUR LAST DAY TO LIVE... SHOO.. WHAT IF IM NEXT?!.... ITS JUST WEIRD HOW LIFE END UP TO BE... AND HOW YOU GROW YOURSELF INTO... BECAUSE I REMEMBER MY FRIEND "K" (THE ONE DIED OF OVERDOSED) I REMEMBER THIS ONE DAY SO VIVIDLY... WE WERE IN MY SCIENCE CLASS AND OUR DESK WERE CLOSE TO THE WINDOWS... WE WERE COLD... BEGGING THE TEACHER TO TURN UP THE HEATER... AND THE TEACHER WAS LECTURING CLASS... AND ME AND HIM WERE WRITING LETTERS BACK AND FORTH... TALKING ABOUT HOW THE DALLAS COWBOYS LOST AGAINST THE PHILADELPHIA EAGLES... THE SUPER BOWL... COWBOYS WAS WINNING AT THE LAST MINUTE BUT BY MIRCLES... THE EAGLES CAUGHT THE KICK OFF BALL AND RAN ALL THE WAY ACROSS THE FIELD AND SCORED TOUCH DOWN... AND WE WERE ALL PISSED OFF... AND THAT WAS PROBABLY THE FIRST YEAR THAT JIMMY JOHNSON STARTED COACHING FOR MIAMI DOLPHINS... AND WE WERE SO MAD AND MY FRIEND "K" SAID... COWGIRLS SUCKS MAN... THEY AINT NEVER GONNA MAKE IT WITHOUT JIMMY!! JERRY MESSED UP BIG TIME... I MEAN YOU COULD TELL THE ANGER IN HIM... BECAUSE HIS HANDWRITING WAS SO F-UCKED UP RIGHT THERE...



YEAH YEAH... SO WE WERE GOOD FRIENDS AT ONE POINT.. AND THEN I LEFT TO ANOTHER SCHOOL... AND JUST LOST IN TOUCH WITH HIM BASICALLY... AND JUST FOUND OUT A YEAR LATER THAT HE DIED...